I found this song when I was checking to see if one of my favorite YouTube bands, Walk off the Earth, had uploaded any new videos. I was so enthralled by the video I found that I watched the video three times before I finally scolded myself: "knock it off, go to sleep, you've got responsibilities after all!" Then I watched it a fourth time.
The song this time is a cover of Fun.'s song "Some Nights" and here's the video:
The video itself makes me incredibly happy. First off, they featured Julia Nunes who I also found on YouTube at some point and her videos are so much fun. Second, the talent that is displayed in this group of people is truly inspiring (this group is constantly blowing my mind!). Look at what they did with not much more than their voices? It makes me want to create. I want to pick up guitar and write a song! Or... I don't know, write a blog post! Har-de-harhar. Or bake cookies. (Which I did, they're chocolate chip and delicious.)
Excuse my tangent for a moment but I'm going to admit something to you all. I have a hard time doing "creative" things because I'm kind of a perfectionist. If I can't pick up a guitar and beat the devil in a battle for my soul that very second, I don't want to start learning. I hold myself to insane standards when it comes to being creative and I am afraid of failing at it miserably. I think I need to work on that.
The song itself has so much that I love about it. It's so freaking catchy that I keep singing along even though I can barely carry a tune. Also, singing while wearing headphones is always a bad idea when you can't sing. Volume control is just gone when you can't hear yourself. The way the beats change and, specifically in the Walk off the Earth video the voices blend and it's just amazing to me.
Then there's the lyrics. Holy crap, the lyrics! They speak to me! I feel like the song could cover almost any number of situations.
"What do I stand for? Oh what do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know anymore"
Most nights, I don't know anymore"
Isn't that one problem everyone faces? Not knowing who they are, what they stand for, what they want to be. I feel like I have a fairly strong grasp of who I am and where I am going but I am only 23 years old so I keep learning things. And I find changes in myself all. the. time. Who would have thought that was possible?
"Well some nights, I wish that this all would end
'Cause I could use some friends for a change"
'Cause I could use some friends for a change"
It's like they're inside my head! I have very few close relationships and I'm terrible about keeping in touch with those people I do form close relationships with. It's my own fault but that doesn't change the fact that sometimes I go into a "lonesome diva" phase.
"So this is it? I sold my soul for this?
Washed my hands of that for this?
Washed my hands of that for this?
I miss my mom and dad for this?"
I am an introvert (some might say recluse) and sometimes I get a lot of anxiety about social situations so I crawl inside my little world and I don't do anything. While sometimes it's healing for me, other times I take it too damn far and I get depressed and think "so this is it?" when I look around myself.
So, I guess I have a few more things I need to work on and though I've known it this song was thought-provoking for me.
And I could go on and on about it but I guess to sum it up: I LOVE THIS SONG. Excuse me while I go and listen to it for at least the 50th time today.
